Wednesday, April 30, 2014

A Psalm of Truth and Lies

I visited this church with my son on Easter Sunday a couple of weeks ago, and we both really enjoyed it.  I missed this past Sunday because of my daughter's trumpet recital in Tally at Florida State University, but the pastor started a new series called, "Talking to God" - about the book of Psalms and how David dealt with a lot of hard things in life, like how he was upset at God sometimes, and how he did not always understand God or why these things were happening to him, but ultimately, the best part of the story, was that he always turned his heart back towards God in spite of the hard things he experienced. 

Well I listened to last week's sermon online, and the pastor asked us to write out our own psalm, as to how we feel about our life right now, to write about God and what we know is true about Him right now and then what we're hoping God will do in our lives.  I was really inspired to write this psalm (poem) below because I was encouraged and challenged by all that David wrote and at times I could relate to some of how he expressed his feelings and emotions. 

By the way,  I am doing much better now, especially as I have been putting the positive aspects of this psalm into practice this past week and I have been focusing on the TRUTH of God and not on the Lies of the Enemy... 


Also, just wanted to convey that when I wrote that "my life is such a mess, so much stress, so isolated," etc. -- It has NOT really been all that bad, I promise (smile) ... I was just trying to follow the mindset that David had in many of his psalms that he wrote and how he felt sometimes, even though there have been some difficult times I have experienced this past year. 






Dear Lord…
My life is like a whirlwind – it’s become such a mess.
I’m in a state of confusion and emotional distress.
You don’t seem to hear me -- You don’t seem care at all.
Even though I know it's not true... I keep up this heavy wall.
I feel alone and isolated so much of the time.…
I cannot sense your presence in my heart nor in my mind.
Why do You seem so far away and what do You want me to do?
to get You back inside my heart – to bring me close to You?
What have I done to make us distant and will You not return?
Or will I live my life alone -- will I never know or ever learn?
I know the Enemy has won in making me feel so bad
Abandoned, rejected from my past, I can’t help but become sad
I need to forget who I was before and focus on who I’ve become --
because my life HAS changed – because of what YOU'VE done.
I need to stop believing lies and focus on what is true
That Jesus died for my sins to help me become like You…
I've been too self-absorbed with all my hurts and pain
Instead of focusing on you and the heartache You’ve sustained.
I know when I reflect on what is true, about all You’ve said and done
And my mind and heart can be restored back to where I first begun.
When I choose to listen to the truth and push away the lies
Then I will overcome the Enemy’s attacks no matter what he tries.
But I need Your Spirit & Your Word & the loving prayers of friends...
All of which will keep me focused on Your love for me....Amen.